5 day fast

it's here and i'm pumped, i have a new nail polish, TONS upon TONS of books, and time (and fat)to burn. i'm starting at 5 days and if i make it then i'm gonna go the weekend and do the next week also. if i have to break on the weekend it will be with small portions of veggies and the 60 cal/serving soups i've hoarded.

i so need this, i feel bloated and heavy. i want to take a white out pen and just draw myself a new body. w/o those hideous lumps and bulges. i want bony wrists and tiny thighs. i want collarbones i can feel and hip bones that i can love and not have to dig for.

here's to the enormous potential we all have, we can!
Elle

Twist and Tumble

this is my ABSOLUTE FAVORITE thinspo ever, it's flawless.

hey, thinspo post, contortions, also excuse the boob in but i think you'll live.

hey, short check-in on me.

well, i'm sure i've gained a million bijillion pounds, looks like you're not getting those pics as soon as i had hoped, maybe when i'm back to the 240's. also that 2 day fast...never had a chance. in hell. ever. i've just kinda decided that whatever fuckwad of damage i do here and now, i'll fix after thanksgiving. i just hope i fit in my dress for Ohayocon '11 (yes, i'm a MAJOR dork and i dress up and go to anime conventions, i love them, ZOMBIE PANELS FTW!!)

love and hope for us all,
may your thanksgiving weeks be filled with no-cal sugar substitiute,
Elle

also, if your looking for good thinspo movies/entertainment try Gilmore Girls, i'm so freaking addicted to that show.
bye :)

ugggs, i've been eating like crap the last few days, i feel nasty. anywho what can i do about it now?? i'm gonna fast for two days before thanksgiving (monday and tuesday) and wenesday i'll eat as well as i can b/c i'm visiting my family. and of course that damned day, thanksgiving. and then i think i'm gonna fast again on monday the 29th and go till that friday. and we'll see from there.

i haven't been keeping up with you guys at all, sorry. i'll pop in soon when i get a chance.

good day loves, haha your comments were all loveable. i wish i knew what the hell i ate that made me lose 13 lbs, it was probably water weight, i haven't weighed myself since, i'm freaking nervous.

so far only 64 cal today, 4 pices of gum (3.5 cal each, oral fixation much?? haha) and 50 cal soup. i'll have some veggies for dinner, or better yet skip it if i can an call 64 good...hopefully.

i think i might try the ABC soon-ish, maybe after the holiday's and my B-day. (jan 18th) so in a few months, i should probably try really hard to keep the cal intakes as low as possible to make the transition easier.

keep the momentum going and never quit,
Elle

The good, the bad and the ugly

hey... well, i wasn't strong enough. i came off the fast by eating the pizza, and some yougurt rasins and some potato chips. around 700 cal. I SUCK. :( well, this morning i wake up and weight myself to asses the damage, but guess what ,some god that cares for me out there made me weight 244.5 this morning. that's 13.9 lbs in 1 day...from a binge. no laxies. no puking. nothing. i have no clue in hell how it happened but i don't care. so this morning i was ESTATIC to say the least.

anywho, i'm thinking pics for you guys, and maybe some new jeans for me, i need them. today only 157 calories consumed (50 cal soup, 2 chocolate covered graham crackers and 2 sticks of light gum)

dinner is half a container of sushi (300 cal) so that will be 457 cals in one day. i'm content. all this week i wanna stay below 600 cal and maybe next week i'll do less cals and more negitive veggies.

love and strength,
Elle

i love these picture, the light quality makes them look so ethereal.

day one and two complete...on to day three.

feeling good, only had about 2.5 glasses of water today but i'll make up for it. last night i was working on an english essay (said essay i said i was gonna do early,haha) and mom decided to order pizza and guess the fucking what.... i said no, and then when pizza arrived she got a different pizza than what she wanted (pasta along with her pizza, oh the carbs) and it was vegitarian and she again asked if i wanted any and i said no...again. where did this willpower come from??!! and so she SAVED IT!!! oh god, it's screaming at me from the fridge and i know that if i eat it i'll fail so hard, so i'm chanting to myself about how i WILL be pretty and thin and able to be picked up and twirled. how i'm an amazing, strong, eventually BEAUTIFUL girl who doesn't need pizza (nasty yucky pizza that will give me pimples) to be happy. i just have to be strong. i tell myself that that pizza is not going to vanish off the face of the earth just because i don't eat it now, when i deserve it i'll have it.

love, be strong and wonderful,
Elle

thinspo and a short post

hi loves, only on my second day of water fasting because i can't resist a thing, doing surprisingly better even though it's a weekend. feeling good and i'm down to 258.4 this morning so it's going good,got a bit of the shakes but i'll survive, first five days are supposed to be hard. thursday night is Harry Potter premier with my friends and the next day mom is letting me skip school. so as long as i don't eat any popcorn and only have diet coke, i'll beat this thing. THANKSGIVING IS SOOOO CLOSE, i'm freaking, what can i eat, will i be done fasting, ahhhh, i'm kinda leaning towards only having small (Emphasis on SMALL) portions of veggies and half a fistful size serving of stuffing (my kryptonite).

love and thinspo thoughts,
Elle

thinspo is Freja Beha, she's lovely.
enjoy!! :)

hiya :) ,

well, not much has happened...yet... going for a swim tonight. laps for an hour, probably should have shaved but C'est la vie i think i'm gonna water fast for a while, (http://mylifewithedanamia.blogspot.com/, she inspired me, thankies!! ^.^) going to go for broke and give it my all.

got SLAMMED with homework this week, so i'm gonna work my ass off (haha, fatty joke, haha) and get shit done. i should be doing it right now, not dicking around on the computer, but such an easy distraction the shinies of the interwebs.

i'll ttyl,
Elle

Ballet beauties for thinspo today, love,
Elle