i choose THE worst time to be on this diet.

definatly broke 500 cal yesterday (had a sleepover w/ my closest friends, they don't know and wouldn't understand not eating more than 500 cal per day), fuck, and today is the family picnic, so 300 will be really hard. good news is that i drank no pop other than the diet stuff and we walked about a mile and a half that day so hopefully it wasn't that bad, can't weigh myself b/c H is sleeping in my room >.<

after this it will get better, i'll make it get better.

ok, i'm gonna talk about my friends now. S, my little ray of sunshine, is THE PRETTIEST GIRL EVER. she's italian so she has that olive skin that browns and she's a size 6 without even trying. and she has waist long blond silky hair, not even fair. B is H's sister, she's in college and we're alot alike. Both S,H,and sometimes B are religious. they're baptist and i find it really akward when they talk about church and band (both are in band) b/c i'm not into those things and when i try to show them what i'm into they don't accept it very well. S is really niave, and H is a tomboy.we're not like each other but we really love each other. and they may get on my nerves...A LOT, but i wouldn't trade them for the world.

gtg quick,parents,
ttyl,
Elle

hello lovies,
well, i'm starting this ABC diet. seems like a good idea, and i'll lose weight quick.

soooo, here it goes :)

GENDER: F
WEIGHT: 278 (yeah, that's right, i lost more, booyah)
HEIGHT: 67 in
ACTIVITY LVL: Light activity (1-3 per week)
CALORIC INTAKE: 500 (or less per day)

1: 500 calories (or less)
2: 500 calories (or less)
3: 300 calories
4: 400 calories
5: 100 calories
6: 200 calories
7: 300 calories
8: 400 calories
9: 500 calories
10: Fast
11: 150 calories
12: 200 calories
13: 400 calories
14: 350 calories
15: 250 calories
16: 200 calories
17: Fast
18: 200 calories
19: 100 calories
20: Fast
21: 300 calories
22: 250 calories
23: 200 calories
24: 150 calories
25: 100 calories
26: 50 calories
27: 100 calories
28: 200 calories
29: 200 calories
30: 300 calories
31: 800 calories
32: Fast
33: 250 calories
34: 350 calories
35: 450 calories
36: Fast
37: 500 calories
38: 450 calories
39: 400 calories
40: 350 calories
41: 300 calories
42: 250 calories
43: 200 calories
44: 200 calories
45: 250 calories
46: 200 calories
47: 300 calories
48: 200 calories
49: 150 calories
50: Fast

08/05/2010 273.96
08/12/2010 269.3
08/19/2010 264.69
08/26/2010 260.15
09/02/2010 255.66
09/09/2010 251.22 (photos for Ya'll!!)
09/16/2010 246.84

love you guys more than life itself,
Elle

P.S.: anyone got any good thinspo songs?? (i have Fiona Apple- paper bag; superchick- courage, stand in the rain, beauty from pain; Radiohead-creep; Katy Rose-lemon; Silverchair- ana's song; juliana hatfeild- feed me and Geri Karlsatrom- Starving for attention.)




UPDATE
-just updating you guys, toped out at 467, very good if i do say so myself.
sweet dreams ladies,
Elle

LOVIES, GUESS WHAT!!!

i am 280.something or other. i will definatly drop below 280 this week. i promise i'll upload pictures at 250, k. ahhhh, i feel kinda accomplished. :)))

not much going on in my life right now, i need to write a 2 pg paper by August 13th. (ohhh, friday the 13th is my paper's due date, ominous *eye waggle*) and i have a family picnic this saturday right after a sleepover w/ my best firends. oggg, sounds like a disater waiting to happen, but if i can make it through saturday w/o breaking 675 i'm gonna feel so good.

i really love ya'll and wish you all the best in the world, you lovely creatures. *huggles for all*
Elle

hello lovies,

i hit my mark with little to spare but at least i didn't go over, right! i'm feeling vaugely optimistic today despite a horendus shopping trip

*all the fucking cute clothes were tooo smalllll :(( *

but life shall charge on and i have a life to live, so onward we go (did i mention i'm feeling optimistic, much)

got my hair cut and it looks superb, although the bangs got a little short for my taste but ,maybe it's the fact that i haven't had bangs since grade school, soooo.

if i was braver and skinnier i would post pics, but alas, i am still 281 lbs on the dot, lately i've been fluctuating a lot in weight though. hopefully sometime this week i'll drop below 280.

wish me luck, you lovely bitches, and i wish you all the same,

Elle

(hehe, more cussing *naughty, naughty* in this post than usual, maybe it's the air?? ^.^)

hey lovlies,

today kinda sucked. felt completely wiped out and i still had to clean house and finish my books for this english project. and i did but it took me all day.

my day went as follows:
-had severe insomnia last night so i was up till 6 am this morning when i finally crashed.
-finished book 1 (Black Boy by Richard Wright) very good but ended suddenly
-slept till 11:40 and then got up and ate about 1100 cal. (ew)
-cleaned house (honestly, living w/ my 12 yr old brother couldn't be more disgusting)
-chatted w/ friends
-mom came home and made carmel popcorn (i don't even wanna know how many cal)
and then i finished book 2 (The Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath. i really liked it, it's very factual and consice in an almost akward way)

loveies, i have a dilema.
i'm almost 3 weeks late on my . and now i'm kinda freaking out. there's no chance of pregnancy (i'm still a Virgin) and i have no idea of what else it could be. any advice??

tomarrow starts my new organized eating plan, wish me luck you guys.
love,
Elle

Hey lovlies,

i have a plan. more restriction on my restriction. not much time now b/c mom is looking down my neck.

ok here it is,

Monday- 510

Tuesday-390

Wensday-700

Thursday-450

Friday-990

Saturday-675

Sunday-420

so far i've been good today, 595 cal all together. and i'm allowed 80 more until i'm maxed out.

love ya all, and stay beautiful.

Elle

UPDATE

eww, just ate probably 1500 cal in one meal, i disgust myself. stupid fucking mom and her stupid fucking chinese food. i need to go clean house to burn all those extra calories off.

it just figures that as soon as i finally divise a plan to actually moniter my cal intakes that i blow that plan the fuck away.

working those cals off,

Elle

hehe, i figured out how to upload pictures!!

hey ladies,

just had my friend (i'll call her H) go home. we had lots-o-fun. i ate a little before she came over (220) that way i wouldn't like pig out. then i had 3 slices pf veggie pizza (250/slice) for dinner. total intake for today 1400-ish. it seems really big but lately i've been good so it's alright.

and i walked a lot today (probably a mile or so) = 160 cal burned

H used to be my size but round 7th grade she lost like 60 lbs and now she's soooo small compared to me, it's angering. all she did was start to work out more and eat healthier. and now she can eat whatever she wants b/c she has Marching Band starting in a few weeks and burns 1000's of calories/day.

Blah, the green eyed monster has come. sorry for the rant. but i wanna be tiny too.

Love you lovelies,

Elle

hey lovlies,

Quick post today
i'm swamping myself with put off summer work right now so there will be no bored eating (as i'm prone to do).
Lunch was stellar
-1 Morningstar Grillers burger w/ ketchup and mustard(185)
-2 chocolates (90)
-total (275) cal. and that gives me lots of room for the evening.

stupid english assignment that involves computer didn't work so i have to e-mail my teacher about that and then maybe starting on my PowerPoint project. And finishing that God Forsaken book.

wish me luck,
Elle

hey my lovelies,

you guys were right, fasting doesn't really help anything and just makes you damn crotchity. i broke down at 11 pm last night and binged. BUTTTTT..... the good news is that i only ate maybe 600 cal.

i think i'm just gonna try to keep all my intakes below 700 for the rest of this week. and i'll decreace the intakes over the next few weeks. and maybe i'll work out for an hour every day. yeah, that's alright.

so... what do you guys think of laxitives. from what i've read (via: blogs and stuff) is that they're a last resort and can be really painful if you take too many. any advice? Also, anybody have advice on colon cleanses? (ie: do they work, how well)

also, i probably won't make 250 by next month. i'm just gonna keep plowing through this week and hopefully it'll get better from here.

Stay Lovely,
Elle



UPDATE
hello, just decided to update everyone on this days intake, only 535 cal today. i love pickles, they have like no cal and are really filling.
Love yah'll
Elle

Fast Day 1

thanks for all the beautiful comments you guys!!! i'm still in shock that people who i've never met would like to follow me on this journey. you are all sooooo beautiful! *huggles for you all*

the beautiful thing about being out of school and not having a job is that i get to sleep in. today i didn't wake up until 9:30 this morning and then i took a shower and what do you know but more than half the day is gone already.

i plan on holeing myself in my room with the classic books i got yearterday and reading until i'm cross-eyed. keeping hydrated, and beautiful. then i have drivers ed classes tonight, these allow me to skip diner w/o being noticed.

i have lots of homework to do and i'm skirting it, right now, so adieu, my lovelies, stay beautiful.
Elle

Hello, everyone

just came home from my vacation last night at 10. and despite my telling myself not eat everything in sight... i did. came home and promptly weighed myself and found out that i gained 4 lbs. (286)

*sigh* (9 hours in a car while eating jones potato chips and munching reese's peices) i knew it would happen b/c all weekend i did nothing but eat and walk around Asheville, NC. so as a punishment/way to loose those extra lbs i'm going to fast tomarrow and wensday.

i'm also delving into the "Classics", as in Literature. as well as finishing my Ap English summer project. i'm tired of being this big boony who is so ignorant of the world around her.

i'm going to try my hardest this school year to get all A's. (never has happened ever in my whole school career.) to do that i'm going to throw myself unabound into my school work.

so today is my big blowout. ate 4 poptart pastries and 1 bag of ramen for a grand total of 1300 cal. eww, hope i do well on this fast.

any tips??

TTYL, you lovely creatures. stay strong for me
Elle

vacation time now, (NOOO SPLURGING!!).

just a tiny update, yesterday i was at 425 cals, ALL TIME RECORD for me.

hopefuly today it'll be smaller as i will be in the car for 9+ hours. don't know how i'm gonna not eat around my family, it's really hard.

resisting the urge to binge
Elle

P.S. IM AT 281, that means i lost 2.5 pounds in 2 days. thanks everyone fo keepong me honest.

Elle

hey,

just surfing the interwebs and found a BMI site. having never calculated my BMI, i did so and i found out that it is a yucky 44.3. which is seriously obese.

and... while doing this i figured out that my previous goal of 170 is still overweight. sooooo my new end goal is now 120-130 (at 130 i would have a BMI of 20.4, which is a good healthy number) and i'm giving myself until the end of junior year to get there. (about a 11 months, i can and WILL do it)

if i can accomplish this feat before said date then i will start poting songs on youtube and i'll start designing my own clothes. (i love designing dresses and such for the future, skinnier me.)

ttyl,
i post a lot, maybe it's just beginners fasination. (sorry, weird outburts there)
Elle

hey! just got back from a workout tonight. only 1/2 hour and only burned 100-150 cal but i've decided that i can't do this in one day (as much as i'd like to), and i've decided to increace my cal burn every day until i hit 1000 cal in a workout.

i've maxed at 548 cal today, and with the 100 burned that's 448 cal.

tomarrow, i'll eat my planned green tea w/ sugar (30) and maybe some celery w/ peanut butter(94). and then i'll burn 200 cal.

maybe tomarrow will be amazing!

toodles and hope you all the best, stay beautiful.
Elle

Gym today for an hour after driving class. so far only 380 cals. I will be strong and eventualy beautiful.

i don't know what i'm gonna do on vacation when i can't be on here.

for all the people who commented and followed, i want to say that you are the wind beneath my wings and are helping me more than you'll ever know, so thank you!! T.T

ok, more background b/c i'm feeling share-y today.

i've tried dieting before (like the "i can eat whatever i want but have to work out hard every day" way) with my mom but it never worked out. i would always be really good for the first few days and then i'd slip up and quit. my mom wasn't that great of a help b/c she was never motivated to lose the weight. she's probably 290-ish and i guess she just doesn't see anything wrong with that. when she was younger she was REALLY PRETTY. i'm talking Black-Brown hair to her shoulders and a very tiny waist, pretty. after she had me and my brother, she just kinda let herself go.

i want to walk into a room of people and feel like everyone is staring at my tiny waist instead of avoiding my thunder-thighs and rolls. and i will work as hard as i have to to get there.

Wishing everyone has a great, strong, beautiful day,
Elle

EEEEWWWW EEEWWW EEWW, fuck fuck fuck!!!

i didn't weigh myself when i started this blog and now (1 day into the reduction diet-thingy) i'm a whole 10 lbs heavier. (283 lbs, how fucking digusting , i honestly want to just cut my stomach off)

so, tomarrow i will not have any food and i will work out until i burn 1000 calories on the treadmill.

PLAN: 1 cup tea w/ 2 tsp of sugar (30) AND THAT'S IT!!!!

run/walk until i burn 1000 calories (kept via the neat calorie counter on my treadmill ^^)

i'll post later this week and see if it's gone down (*crosses fingers* i'm gonna hate myself if it hasn't T.T)

hey!!

last few days have been hard. Saturday sucked @ss, but sunday was the worst (over 2000 calories i think). but i'm forgeting all that b/c that's in the past now.

today i managed to not eat until diner tonight (b/c i have to eat w/ my family so they won't freak on me) and when i did eat i only ate 380 calories!!!! i finally did it, my first day of restricted eating!!! i feel sooooo good.

i'm going on vacation thursday so i might splurge then but i will keep it controled. if i don't then i'll go to the gym and work out for an hour and then fast for a few days.

i figured out that Green Tea (0) w/ 2 teaspoons of suger (30) is a girl's best friend cause that's what helped me through the day.

it's easier to not eat on the week days b/c my mom works and my dad and brother couldn't give a f***. i'm gonna shoot for better tommarro, maybe under 300?!! and i'm gonna try to run too. Gotta lose this weight somehow!

ttyl
Elle ^.^

Hey, i'm new here (*DUH*) and i'm trying to lose an @ssload of weight as quickly as possible.

Height: 5"7
Start Weight: 273

i digust myself everytime i look in a mirror, so i'm gonna make myself lose the weight. I will be less than 150 lbs next school year (hopefully a lot less)

PLAN:
-No food until dinner every night. ( 100-250 Cal)
-Water frequently
-1 Cup Green Tea w/ 2 teaspoons sugar (30 Cal)

To be successful in this it's imparitive that I set goals.

GOAL 1: 230 lbs for the start of school in 6 weeks.
REWARD: Buy cute new school clothes and look amazing for the first day of school.
GOAL 2: 200 lbs for winter break (aprox: 5-6 months)
REWARD: Buy that cute dress from Modcloth that you've wanted for forever.
GOAL 3: 170 lbs for spring break
REWARD: Buy some new manga for myself.

ok, now i'll tell you guys a little about me.

I AM
- A vegitarian
- A music addict
- A food addict (hopefully former)
- A complete dork
- Loves anime/manga more that life itself.

i really hope i find some great people here and make all my dreams come true (^.^)

ttyl
Elle