hey, well that diet i was gonna start, it didn't happen. i'm a useless fat ass who can't do anything.
I AM starting the diet tomarrow (or today really 'cause it's 12:13 am) and i will go 30 days w/o processed foods. i have stocked up on fruits and veggies. i am going to be working most of the next 2 weeks.
just to update you all, i have officially quit but seeing as i quit quite suddenly 2 days ago, long story short Dad was an ass and me and H quit that day. it was a huge blow up. not fun. i will be filling in for the next 2 weeks on the fairs that i was going to work at.from there i don't know what will happen. i really wish that i could just walk away from my dad and his shitty business but i can b/c he's my familly, whether i like it or not. which really just sucks.
the 18th marks the first day of band rehearsal, well it's rookie camp so it's the first day for me, and i really don't want to be as fat as i am now for it. i would like 245-ish. i could live with 245-ish.
i would love to be under 200 by the start of school on August 29 (or somewhere close but i don't know the exact date) but that would be un-realistic. i will plan for 220 or something close. hopefully with the 2 hour/three times a week workouts that are band i'll lose some fat and gain some muscle.
in other news, there isn't any. i'm being a lazy bitch and lounging my summer away.
Love,
Elle
These pictures help me so much, i adore them greathly.
Elle- we all have those moments where we feel like we are worthless and like we can never accomplish what we set out to do. Try not to get discouraged. Losing weight is math. Simple math. You need to intake less than you burn in order to lose weight. And food is fuel, not an emotional crutch or something to do when you are bored. The only reason you should be eating is to fuel your body.
ReplyDeleteAlso, please don't try to become Ana. It's a disease which is not fun to deal with. No more starving yOurself. I'm not one to take my own advice, but since you're relatively new to this, I think you should try and do it the healthy way
You're not useless.
ReplyDeleteYou're an inspiration.