oh lovies, i'm sorry.

i've been gone for so long and i've missed you all. do you guys know that i think about you guys like everyday? i do, i think "nessa can do this, so can i!" or i think of how Cinn would cheer me up. i think of how you all care for me and how i'm disappointing you guys. i'm so sorry.

as you can probably guess, i didn't fast. i forgot about my mom's Birthday (i know, how horrible of me, i can't even quantify). that was the 6th. i haven't even been that good. i haven't gained much. i was at 267.2 yesterday, i've been there for at least a week.

i'm gonna start a 500 cal/day regimine next week. i need it. i hate looking this way and i want to change.

Nessa: i'm sorry i left you hanging this week. i hope to do better this weekend and next week.

Girls, i love you to my depths and wish you all the skinniest dreams,
Elle

P.S.- this is Carey Mulligan. if any of you have seen An Education, she's the star. it's terrific thinspo if you're into 50-60's style dresses and outfits. she's lovely.